Deep Down Flaws

Wtf?
I've just got told off because I'm "folding clothes wrong"?!
Can't I do anything right?
People think I'm perfect sometimes, wtf? What happened to that low opinion so many people have of me?
Here are the stupid things I've been criticied with before:
Not breathing right
Not walking right
Not eating or drinking right
Not wearing clothes properly, or the colours of the clothes I've been critised for before.
I could go on :/.

But it just reminded me of Al to be honest :/
Forever worrying about if I'm doing something wrong but the only flaw,
Was worrying I was doing something wrong :/
So he left me, *sighs* I don't know and I look at other boys and think;
Am I liking them and wanting to go out with them, maybe so they can partially replace My Alex?:/
Or am I trying to replace the gap he left behind?

I'm not sure,
But deep down I'm still being torn.
One of my mates said, when I told her who I liked
: " They're not Alex,..."
I know :/ and I know every boy, every relationship is different.
It just reminds me of the past I had, The past I need, The past I want, And the past I miss


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Permission.

Ugh.
For the past week I've been having people tell me how to live my life, or how to, have my relationship with my boyfriend properly.
WTF
Sorry but i thought it was a free country.
I'm sick and tired of other people trying to get themselves into MY LIFE, MY SITUATIONS, MY PROBLEMS
and making problems in my life of their fucking own accord.
FUCK OFF
As my friend agrees with me, it's MY LIFE it's ME that's got tp live it so why the hell are you getting yourself involved?
I'm sick of people like this, they make me disgusted.
AND HALF OF THEM ARE HYPERCRYPTS!!!
Like last week (naming no names),
My friend told me that i was acting wrongly in my relationship with Al,
wth? Sorry but I'm Happy, HE'S happy, so why get yourself involved?
They said they wasn't the only one who noticed.
FIRST OF ALL
You don't even hang around with me so how the hell do you know?
Secondly, If you say your not the only one who's notice does that mean your having private bitching sessions about me behind my back?
AND AGAIN
HYPERCRYPT!
Do you want me to remind you about last year? Where you rang me up early in the morning crying because you thought someone was hitting on our boyfriend just because they said hi to them on bebo or msn?
Oh I'm Sorry, I'm Not Allowed To Get Into YOUR Life The Way You Immerse Yourself In Mine.
Saying about how Insecure i am about him and how i "get jealous easily" is really going to make me calm down isn't it?

So you've been a backstabbing hypercrypt to me? Teasing me about it the next day? And you expect me to be your friend?
Thanks.
Thanks for your support and Loyalty as a friend.

To Be Honest, I Could Easily, VERY Easily Go On Talking About This For Another Seven Pages But That Wouldn't Be Very Entertaining.

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I went into morning regestration yesterday, and before I'd even sat down I was getting asked
"Jess, Why did you dress up as Superman on your bebo?"
(Myself)"Coz I Wanted to?"
They then started to talk about me from the other side of the room.
WHAT THE FUCK?

First off I don't even talk to you and no offence but I barely LIKE you anyways :/.
Grr, worry about your own life not mine. Geez.

All these people in life just think I aim to please THEM.
Sorry but it's my life i do what i want, how i want, WHEN i want.
SO BACK OFF!

Thanks.

xo